IWSG – A Turtle in a Hare’s World

turtle and hare

Happy March. Are you hoping spring is around the corner like I am? I’m so over the cold, but I know all too soon I’ll be complaining about the heat. I really need to live in a place that has mild-ish temperatures year round. But we aren’t here to chat about the weather.  A new month means a new IWSG blog post.

Let’s get right into things shall we. I’ve had my struggles throughout my time in this group. I mean it’s to be expected right? And I’m sure I will continue to have them because it’s who I am. I’ve written before about how life can be harder (sometimes) for the indie writer and that’s what this post will touch on.

I don’t know when the tide turned and expectations of production increased at the same time for “demand” of lower prices, but that’s where we seem to be. Some seem to think the boom of Amazon in the book mark along with the invention of Kindle Unlimited had a lot to do with it, but that’s a discussion for another time. I’m focusing on the production aspect for today.

I’m a turtle. In fact, about two years ago I made an offhand comment about being a #turtlewriter and it snowballed into a whole thing. It’s great to have a community of fellow slow poke writers, but for me, being slow I think is just one more thing that puts me behind the eight ball.

It’s easier to say don’t compare yourself to others, but it’s harder to actually follow that advice. I realize my process is different from others, but that doesn’t stop me feeling like crap because my production is so low. That feeling is the start of a spiral that makes it even harder to concentrate because then I start to wonder what’s the point.

I follow plenty of authors and when I see some putting out three or more books in a year I have moments of wondering if baby stepping along is worth it. In a time when there are so many books to be read. By all accounts it’s “easier” (only in how to get them out in the world sort of way) to publish books. Getting your foothold is harder than ever.

I don’t write a series and I don’t write fast and both of those things make me feel like I’m shooting myself in the foot. I’ve said it before, I’m a mood writer so if my mood is in the dumps it’s hard as hell for me to write, especially considering I write romance.

People tell you all day long, you have to have a thick skin for this business. Granted most times it’s in relation to less than stellar reviews you may or may not get, but it applies to other things as well. The imposter syndrome is real! And I fully admit to being my own worst enemy. It’s things I know, but at the same time seem to be unable to stop.

So, what’s a turtle to do in this hare world? For now, keep turtling along I guess. I’m a glutton for punishment. LOL I don’t know how to change my process so that I’m more productive. And no amount of pep talks stop the feelings of inadequacies that hang around with me on a daily basis.

Boy this post turned out to be way more depressing than I imagined when I first started writing it. LOL #PantserLife But it is what it is. Me putting my feelings/insecurities out in the world.

Happy Spring to everyone and hope y’all have great months.

Until next time
~Meka

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The Insecure Writer’s Support Group is a home for writers in all stages; from unpublished to bestsellers. Our goal is to offer assistance and guidance. We want to help writers overcome their insecurities, and by offering encouragement we are creating a community of support.

The awesome co-hosts for the The awesome co-hosts for the March 4th posting of the IWSG are Jacqui Murray, Lisa Buie-Collard, Sarah Foster, Natalie Aguirre, and Shannon Lawrence!

8 thoughts on “IWSG – A Turtle in a Hare’s World

  1. S.E. White says:

    As a fellow pantser, and turtle, I hear you. I don’t have any solutions for you, sadly, but I do empathize completely.

    I like to think that although our backlists grow slowly we will eventually have a really decent set of books out there and the nice thing about the internet is: it’s forever. Even though we get books out once a year or less, those years do add up! And readers will always be able to find our previously published stuff. I know that when I find a new author I love I immediately go out and buy their entire backlist, like a crazy fan haha. So there’s hope!

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    • Meka James says:

      Thank you. It’s true my backlist is growing, slow and steady but in the right now, it always seems like not enough. 😦 And trying to promote those while also writing new stuff. So many balls in the air always. I do average about one book a year. I would love for it to be more, but I don’t see that as feasible in my current situation since my lack of productivity affects my mood which only increases my inability to get words done. Gotta try and keep my eyes focused ahead, but not always easy.

      thanks for stopping by

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  2. Vania Margene Rheault says:

    Writing quickly isn’t all it’s cracked up to be, and it doesn’t always yield results (look at my 40 dollar royalty check from last month). When you strip everything down, writing a good book, having a good cover, and a decent blurb puts you ahead of probably 90% of the authors out there who are publishing. If you can only do that once a year, you’re still in a better place than an author who publishes 5-10 books a year that aren’t great. (Not saying fast publication means bad books, just saying if you don’t have craft down, writing that many books won’t help much.) I would always prefer quality over quantity, and so would a reader, I bet. The grass is never greener on the other side–we all have our struggles.

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    • Meka James says:

      My $20 royalty check understands that and it only seems to be shrinking. LOL I don’t think I’ll ever put out 5 books a year, but doing more than one would be nice. I just haven’t found my groove and that fact messes with my head which in turn slows my already snail pace process down more. 😦

      thanks for stopping by

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    • Meka James says:

      That is what I try to tell myself but some days it gets to me. Wishing I could crank out more product in a year to keep the momentum going instead of always feeling like I’m starting over with each new release.

      thanks for stopping by

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