IWSG – Mid-year Ups and Downs


Holy moly, it’s July. I took last month off because I just couldn’t get it together. So much was (and still is) going on that I had a hard time focusing and even pretending I was in a good head space. However, I’m trying this month to put something out.

This group is all about sharing our insecurities, successes, and failures so I’m gonna just put it out there. Warning now, this might become a rambling mess.

We are halfway through the most shittiest shows of shit show years. At this point I’m almost scared to ask what else could go wrong, because the answer is a lot!

So what will this all be about? Mostly a check in on what I’ve done and not done so far with half the year gone.

What I’ve not done is…well a lot. LOL I’d thought I’d have put out or at least finished more projects by now, but nope. I’ve published one book so far this year, in May which by the way time works these days seems like a freaking lifetime ago rather than just over a month ago.

And yes, I know that putting out a book is an accomplishment. But with the way I’ve been lately what I focus on is that I put out a novella, that took me way too freaking long to write because I can’t concentrate for shit. However, as my Squad likes to break out the pom-poms and cheer me on when I get down in the dumps, on the upside I have written 34k new words also since May.

That amazing feat was accomplished because I joined a challenge led by Tasha L. Harrison called 20kin5Days where you do just what you think, attempt to write twenty thousand words in five short days. Did I complete the challenge? Yes. Do I think the words will need major editing? Also yes. And am I finished with the story? No. Even though I set myself a deadline of June 30 to complete the first draft, it didn’t happen. The fact that I missed it bums me out, but I’m going to try and keep going and get it completed.

While June had me an emotional, stressed out mess due to everything that was and is still taking place with the senseless murders of Black people. The protests. The ongoing pandemic. It also ended up being my best month ever as an author. My first book released in 2014, then I didn’t put another book out until after joining this group in 2017. At most I’d sell maybe 10-15 books a month. When I released Being Hospitable, my first f/f story that spiked to 50+ in October, but quickly dwindled down. I don’t sell a lot of books, however this happened:


It was an unreal day and one I probably won’t have again, but still seeing my little book climb the ranks when I’m always in like the hundreds of thousands ranking for any and all of my titles was great. Of course the drop happened as expected, but screenshots are forever. LOL That unbelievable event happened because my little book was mentioned by a book reviewer I follow, but had no idea she 1) knew I existed and 2) actually read my books. I follow a lot of reviewers because I enjoy their content though I don’t reach out to peddle my wares.

Overall, I feel like I’m barely treading water. I have joined an anthology for the first time, so writing the short for that will at least get me something else published this year. Otherwise the chances are looking slim. It’s for charity which is why I joined.


The publisher’s proceeds from Love Me Always will be donated in their entirety to the NAACP Legal Defense Fund. Please note that Love Me Always is not affiliated with or endorsed by the NAACP.

If you’re not into romance, but still want to help, please consider donating directly to the NAACP Legal Defense Fund.

Okay, I guess that’s it for now. Hopefully in August I can say I actually finished my current WIP and if I do, I’ll be once again entering query land.

I hope everyone is safe, and healthy. Be kind to each other, wash your hands, and wear your masks.

Until next time

The Insecure Writer’s Support Group is a home for writers in all stages; from unpublished to bestsellers. Our goal is to offer assistance and guidance. We want to help writers overcome their insecurities, and by offering encouragement we are creating a community of support.

The awesome co-hosts for the July 1 posting of the IWSG are Jenni Enzor, Beth Camp, Liesbet @ Roaming About, Tyrean Martinson, and Sandra Cox!

9 thoughts on “IWSG – Mid-year Ups and Downs

    • Meka James says:

      Yes, Fiendish was my first book. It’s rough and could probably do for an overhaul LOL. I didn’t have my Squad or any sort of writer community support then which is probably another reason I had such a delay from book one to book two.

      Thank you. 🙂 I’m trying to enjoy the little things for sure.

      thanks for stopping by

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  1. Jemi Fraser says:

    It has been an incredibly challenging year. The emotional toll has been immense. Hopefully the rest of the year looks up.
    I love that little orange #2 flag!! Congrats and here’s to many more!

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    • Meka James says:

      Yes it has! And we’re not even done yet. 😦 LOL hopefully the last half will be somewhat better.

      Thank you! I never expected one of my books to ever make it so far. Didn’t stay for long, but I will always have the picture of when it did.

      thanks for stopping by


  2. Debbie Johansson says:

    Congratulations on reaching No.2 on Amazon! It’s lovely to see that little flag during this very bleak year. May there be many more! 🙂


  3. Donna Hanton says:

    Congratulations on the #2 ranking! I’d be working that into my marketing somehow! I know it’s all a matter of perspective, and what you normally achieve, but if I’d gotten done as much as you in six months, I’d be a happy camper! Give yourself credit for so much done at such a crappy time.


  4. Patsy says:

    Congratulations on the published book!

    It’s been an odd half year, hasn’t it. I suspect most of us haven’t done the things we thought we would. Even if we’ve managed to stay productive through these difficult times we’ve often changed our plans.


  5. jmh says:

    Hey Meka,

    First of all, I’m so, so sorry for all the police brutality, backlash against protests, online ignorance, and all the other crap that has been going on. It hurts the heart. Black Lives Matter! YOUR life matters.

    Congratulations on seeing your book climb the charts. That must have been an awesome feeling! It’s a gorgeous cover, btw.

    I have to say, reading this post–I feel you. It’s been such a tough year, and whenever one pokes their head up in optimism, they’re whacked right back down again. Hard to write or feel inspired in this climate. But you’ve had some success, and you haven’t given up, and sometimes, that’s the best you can do. I’m always here if you need another cheerleader.

    I’ve been donating too, but so far it’s been to Elijah McClain’s mom and supporting Black artists and authors. x Stay strong.


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